taylor, 24, dean is beautiful ♡

livebloggingmydescentintomadness:

you know, i just can’t get over the chrysler building-sized VOID of dean’s reaction to finding out that his best friend of over a decade is in love with him.

there were words cut off when cas pushed him out of the way; silent sobs; a carefully edited version of events given to sam and jack; drinking himself unconscious; racing up the stairs into what he knew might be a trap; a tender smile at “cas helped.” but never a single fucking word.

like, there isn’t even a no homo. there’s nothing to indicate that dean doesn’t love cas back except a neck-snappingly sharp and unnatural detour from “CAS, you gotta bring him back” and “eh, cas would want us to live our lives.” 

dean never got paired with a woman, not that he’s had any love interests in the last nine years anyway. there weren’t any throwaway lines of, like, oh yeah lisa is in your heaven or cassie is in your heaven or anna is in your heaven, any of the women he’s felt for in his life. we have been textually shown that dean wants a life partner, and he never got one aside from cas.

it makes complete and total sense for us to fill in this void with the assertion that dean is in love with cas too (cause c’mon, of course he is), because that is never refuted. they couldn’t refute the assertion that dean returns cas’s feelings, so they had to clap an invisible hand over his mouth. they had to keep him from speaking, because the only possible words that could fill that void are “i love you too.” 

if the answer isn’t “i love you too” then why not let him speak?

and you know what pisses me the fuck off, is anyone acting like we’re asking too much for that void to be filled. because if cas was a woman, if this was a straight ship and one half said “i love you” then died, and the man never got to say how he feels about her in return, people would be upset!!! this would never fucking fly in a hetero pairing, because of fucking course the audience wants to know what the answer is. 

the absolute silencing of dean winchester is one of the most insulting things about how all this ended.